Sunday, October 20, 2013

Those Childhood Days


When you came into the world, she held you in her arms. You thanked her by weeping your eyes out.

When you were 1 year old, she fed you and bathed you. You thanked her by crying all night long.

When you were 2 year old, she taught you to walk. You thanked her by running away when she called.

When you were 3 year old, she made all your meals with love. You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.

When you were 4 year old, she gave you some crayons. You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.

When you were 5 year old, she dressed you for the holidays. You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 year old, she walked you to school. You thanked her by screaming, “I’m not going!”

When you were 7 year old, she bought you a baseball. You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor’s window.

When you were 8 year old, she handed you an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 year old, she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 year old, she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastics to one birthday party after another. You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 year old, she took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 year old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked her by waiting she left the house.

When you were 13 year old, she suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14 year old, she paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15 year old, she came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16 year old, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid your college tuition, drove you to campus, and carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone. You thanked her by saying. “It’s none of your business.”

When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future. You thanked her by saying, “I don’t want to be like you.”

When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation. You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment. You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.

When you were 24, she met your fiancé and asked about your plans for the future. You thanked her by glaring and growling, “Muuhh-ther, please!”

When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby. You thanked her by telling her, “Things are different now.”

When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then one day she quietly died.
And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder.

“Rock me baby, rock me all night long.”
“The hand who rocks the cradle… may rock the world.”

Let us take a moment of the time just to pay tribute and show appreciation to the person called mom though some may not it openly to their mother. There’s no substitute for her. Cherish every single moment. Though at times she may not be the best of friends, may not agree to our thoughts, she is still your mother!!! She will be there for you… to listen to your woes, your bragging, your frustrations, etc. Ask yourself…. Have you put aside enough times for her, to listen to her “blues” of working in the kitchen, her tiredness? Be tactful, loving and still show her due respect though you may have a different view from hers. Once gone, only fond memories of the past and also regrets will be left.






Don’t take for granted the things closest to your heart. Love her more than you love yourself. Life is meaningless without her?

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Food of thought


There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.

Don’t go for looks; they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you wants to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.


Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

不可能习惯


以前曾努力忘记你的死,你不在的世界里我无法找到任何的意义、

渐渐破坏的心一直在寻找着你

如果你能听见,有很多话想告诉你

全心全意永远让你充满笑容

永远把你记住在心里

不想失去的愿望,是最远的那一颗星,

天空辽阔就如明天,

虽是漫无边际,但我想伸出双手

没有你的日子,虽然永远不可能会习惯

妈妈的家乡


二十一年以来,这是我第一次回去妈妈的家乡,第一次出国。那种感觉真的很奇妙,今天早上我还在马来西亚,在自己家里悠闲地坐着;下午却在另外一个国度了,有种难以置信的感觉。在这里,看不见一个印度人,真有点不习惯,哈哈这里的人驾车都超级无敌恐怖,全程,车笛声响个不停,看见车就hon,真的是疯了!

第一次看见神灵那么的灵验,香火多么的旺盛,信徒多么的虔诚。真是趟不错的旅程这里的小孩很多都很可怜,明明看他们好像都很爱玩,跑来跑去的,可是我注意到他们的眼神都离不开地上,一旦看到橡胶圈、铁罐,他们就会快点拾起来,小小年纪的,我不由得一阵心酸。表面上,他们的确是在玩耍,可是他们也不忘了自己的责任,这点令我佩服

唯一不满的是这里的卫生简直是糟糕透了。他们没有电、没有水,用的都是发电机的电,用的都是天上的雨水,冲凉的时候,甚至看得见孑孓在游动,吓死我了!不管冲多久,都觉得冲不干净。有什么垃圾,随手就可以丢,往桥下望去的时候,是一望无际的垃圾海天哪!真的是接受不到咯…. 





Tuesday, July 2, 2013

天国的邮递员


我最喜欢的一部剧

一个神秘的邮差
一个受情伤的女子
一个能穿梭现实与灵界的送信人




宽广的大草原中有个孤零零伫立着的邮筒,那是一个传说中只要把信放入其中便能传达给天国爱人的邮筒,作为天国的邮差,在现实和死去的世界往返。为了让丧失爱人而绝望的人们有继续活下去的希望。

邮箱,一直坚贞不渝地站在路边日晒雨淋,等待着路人的经过。一封信,一份心意,把每个人的心意寄到世界的各个角落,把这份心意传给大家。好想写一封没有地址的信,把不愉快的心情寄到那不能收到的角落。

多媒体的时代,大家已开始慢慢的忘了信箱的存在,也慢慢地忘了信箱的意义。真的很想写一封没有地址的信,把不满、不安和不开心的心情都写下,然后寄出去。对我而言这是另一种发泄,但我知道这是不可能的,因为邮差叔叔一定会把没有地址的信丢掉。真希望世界上真的有这么一个地方,能把不愉快的心情都寄到那个地方。





站得高一点,是否会离天堂近一点

Sunday, June 9, 2013

快乐的工作


你问我哪段时间日子过得最快乐?我想在云顶做工的那段日子是我最快乐的回忆。你问我哪份工作我最难忘?我想长这么大,让我最开心的那份工作是小丑。因为我想我学会了快乐是什么。那段与世隔绝的日子,虽然刚开始时,觉得很寂寞孤独;但最后,却变成了人生中最充实的一段日子。在那里,没有一个人我认识,一早醒来,换上小丑的装,在游乐场到处蹦蹦跳跳地派捏成公仔的气球给小朋友,晚上累了,就跟新认识的朋友喝茶聊天。还记得,新认识的朋友总认不出我,因为白天都画着浓浓的小丑装,晚上跟他们出来喝茶,却变了一个样。这样的日子不知不觉过了半年我喜欢那时的自己,把快乐带给身边的人,也带给自己。








其实那段日子是我最悲伤的日子,失去了你。把自己关在一个没人认识的世界,结果不知不觉爱上了这个世界,我希望拥有一个属于自己的空间,所以就一点一点搬来了在这个世界里整天疯疯癫癫地过我的日子,学着嘻嘻哈哈,久而久之还真的变开心了。也可能是装着装着就习惯了,认真地学认真地装,自己也会忘记难过的。当时的我既无法幸福也无法悲伤,既不知道快乐是什么也不知道伤心是什么。可是现在回想起来,却是最开心的一段回忆。

Thursday, March 28, 2013

future diary



一直以来,都拼命记录着每天发生的事情,因为害怕会忘记一丝一毫经历过的日子。之后,每天记录的日记变成了可以知晓未来的日记。拿着可以知晓未来的日记进行了一场生存游戏。在游戏里,喜欢上了一个古怪的女孩,这个女孩杀死了自己的爸爸妈妈,之所以喜欢这个女生是因为她一直都在自己的身边保护自己。之后,还为了这个奇怪的女生,而杀死了自己所有的朋友。以为只要自己赢了这场生存游戏,当了神以后,就可以复活所有被自己杀死的人。可是到最后才发现就算成为了神,死去的人还是不可能复活的。自己喜欢的那个女生就是上个世纪生存游戏里的胜利者,当了神以后,她要求回到有那个有自己喜欢的男生的那段日子里,想一直重复着这个过程,让她可以和自己喜欢的那个男生永远在一起。就因为这个原因,一直重复杀着更多的人,也把另一个世纪的自己杀死了。


因为一份可以知晓未来的日记,每个人都变得如此自私,为了满足自己的欲望,不惜杀害自己最亲密的人,颠倒这个世界的因果伦理。

Sunday, March 3, 2013

灵魂的化身


每一颗耀眼的星星都记载着每一对恋人的一生。

在遥远的某个地方星星象征着思念,夜空里的每一颗星星都有一个属于它们自己的故事。每一颗星星都住着一个守护神,它们各自守候着一个对他们很重要的人。你知道为什么星星会闪烁吗?其实星星是有灵性的,就跟地球上的所有生物一样最重要的就是一颗心,心会怦怦跳个不停;星星就会闪烁个不停,一旦失去心跳,那个人就会从此消失;星星一旦不再闪烁,就会消失不见。当一颗星星滑落天空时,就代表有一个人将要死去。




有人曾经告诉我一个有关于星星的传说,所有男人一旦没了心跳都会变成夜空里的一颗星星继续闪烁继续守护他心爱的人直到永远,一旦她守护的人失去心跳,星星就会在夜空里从此消失不见。

【传说星星是由人变成的.不过,那不是普通的人而是情人。在万籁俱寂的夜晚,在浩繁的星空,那颗颗水晶般透明的星星,在祈祷,在为他一生最爱的人,轻轻地、默默地、忠诚地在每一个夜晚中祝福,永远……

她要为自己爱的人做最闪亮最执着的星星
都说女孩像天使 ,我倒觉得女孩更像星星!那么脆弱,但坚强地闪着微弱的光,
关于星星,一直有个这样的传说:人死了就会变成星星。所以在晴朗的夏夜我都喜欢注视星空,希望在群星中找到我最爱的那一颗,,最闪亮的那一颗,它可以给我 希望,给我力量.,所以看星成了我的习惯。一种只能这样才觉得充满幸福快乐力量的习惯。

天上的星星便是灵魂的化身。


只是往往还来不及许下愿望,它就已经消失在天际的尽头。有时候我常常的这样的问到:它的逝去真的会为我们带来好运吗?如果真的是这样的话,那么想要获得一份美好,岂不是必须要用它那美 好的生命作为代价吗?那我还是情愿它们继续留在天空,永远的灿烂下去,让每个人分享它所带来的美丽,哪怕得不到它临走之前对我的允诺。
虽然我非常赞赏它的辉煌,但给我剩下更多的却是惋惜,我不禁要问:为什么美丽的东西都不会长久呢?









到此刻我才明白,星星在人们心中不是陨落的光茫,而是一个神圣的希望。
朦胧而又清晰地印照着我们的世界,它们如此欢乐,又如此孤独。它们因能继续守护着亲人而快乐,因无法再融入亲人而寂寞。为了那早已逝去本体而悲哀
地上的人们对着遥不可及的星星寄予了寄托,希望它们能帮他们达成愿望。而远处的星星们,也对神秘的人类充满了向往。 

祝福你


今天,在娱乐报上看见了你向女艺人求婚成功的新闻,你们明年就会完婚了。忽然心里出现些许悸动。想到了很多以前我们相处的日子,那段回忆真的很值得珍藏。一开始,是我自己先喜欢你的,欣赏你的才华,欣赏你的认真,跟你一起工作的时候,充满干劲,喜欢得到你的鼓励,可是我从来没想过跟你有进一步的发展。之后,你竟然开口向我告白,我心里其实很开心,却不愿意去接受这段变质的感情,不希望我们之间的感情有任何的改变我只想默默喜欢那个我崇拜的你










之后,你参加了某个歌唱比赛,也有不错的成绩,出道成了艺人。比赛期间,我一直给你加油打气,一直鼓励你,陪你练歌,替你宣传。比赛结束后,你跟我的距离却一瞬间变远了,不久后组成男生组合出道发片,从此就蒸发在我的世界,也许我拒绝了你,让你难过而选择离开。也可能我已经没资格再让你继续喜欢我,毕竟你是艺人,而我什么都不是




现在的我,看到你的照片,我还会想起你曾经是我崇拜曾经喜欢的人,心里还是会觉得开心。而你,可能已经彻底忘了我是谁吧。不过,我还是会祝福你过得美满幸福


brutal game in the world


我不是故意要把你骂得那么难过的,对不起在骂你的当时,我其实是想把自己也一并骂醒…  想回答你说:“我也还活在过去 就是没勇气承认

因为忘不了,所以一直被束缚,我们都一样没出息

结果两个人坐在街上痛哭。现在想起来有够paiseh…. 哭着哭着又觉得好笑,因为我希望受伤的不是只有我自己,看到你也跟我一样笨,又觉得好笑。

我能够理解你的心情,他也一样离开了我,我对他的记忆也不多,因为很少察觉他的存在,现在我还是常常思念他。我想,要是在街上遇到跟他长得相似的人,也许我也会像你一样。
至少你有很多你们一起时的照片,可以记住他的样子,可惜我没有这个机会。因为我快忘记他长什么样子了。而我们一张合照都没有

小时候,觉得长大后能跟自己心爱的人坐旋转木马是那么幸福的事;
长大后,最讨厌旋转木马了


你知道为什么吗?因为我发现旋转木马是这世上最残酷的游戏,彼此追逐却永远隔着可悲的距离就像我们一样,我没说的话你明白吗?我也不想安慰你,希望你能坚强一点不要为自己找任何的借口

至少你们一直拥有同一个秘密和同一段回忆,这样就够了



The merry go round is the most brutal game in the world, chase each other but never across the sad distance.